Showing posts with label panic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label panic. Show all posts

Monday, July 6

Shredded, Melted, and Mangled

i wanted to go to ruby tuesdays.

we went to outback steakhouse. i will forever be giving jake crap about this.

on the way back to my house we took i-215 heading east. we got on at fort union and once we were on the freeway we rolled up our windows. jake was driving. we were in his pathfinder. i was in the passenger seat changing the music on the ipod. we believe i had my right foot propped up on the dash.

just a few minutes past the fort union on ramp jake wanted to move into the left lane so he turned on his signal and checked his blind spot before he started to merge over. there was a woman in his blind spot so he stayed in the middle lane but she saw his blinker and panicked. she thought he was going to come over without seeing her and so she swerved into the far left lane and then over corrected coming back and came into our lane. i heard her tires squeal but didn't see anything. jake saw her coming and knew it was going to be bad. i believe he said something out loud like "oh shit" right before she hit us, hard, on the drivers side back tire. the way she hit us caused the pathfinder to fishtail out to the right and skid on the tires so we ended up perpendicular to the flow of traffic. the pathfinder then tipped onto my side and slid. miraculously my window did not break. i am thankful i had just rolled it up. that window probably saved my face, my arm, and possibly even my life. after that is hazy for both of us. the skid marks on the car indicate that we rolled at least once and spent some time sliding on jakes side as well but we don't remember that. his window did break but, aside from some glass in his hair and ears, he was not hurt.

the next thing i knew we landed on the roof of the car and slid for several hundred yards. this part is very vivid for me. i remember it very clearly. it is amazing how much your brain can process in such a short amount of time. i remember thinking several things. "No. Not yet." "This is not happening to us." "We are going to hit something on my side before we stop." "I can't believe the air bags didn't go off." and of course, "Is Jake okay? Is Jake okay?" i also remember the sound of metal on asphalt and the smell of the plastic melting. 

i was never scared though. there isn't time to be afraid. in that moment you just are.

the car came to a stop all on its own upside down in the far right lane right after the 2800 exit ramp. pretty far away from where we started. we didn't hit anything and no other cars hit us. when we came to a stop the pathfinder was facing the other direction, sort of south west, which means while we were on the roof we spun and did at least a 180. we were both wearing our seat belts. they saved our lives for sure. as soon as i was sure we had stopped i called jakes name and reached out to him. the moment in between asking for him and hearing him say "I'm okay. Are you okay?" was the longest half a second of my life. 

As i hung there my bare feet fell down under the glove compartment and something under there was really hot and burnt my feet so i had to hold my legs up which isn't exactly easy. jake quickly turned the engine off and i remember thinking that was really smart of him to think to do that. Several people were at my window then. Jake and i were amazed at how many people stopped to help us. It is good to know that there are still really good people in the world. Jake couldn't get out of his side. It was too smashed. There were at least 5 men at my door asking if i was okay. They got the door open and someone held me to the chair while i unbuckled my seatbelt. I flipped down then and stood up but i was barefoot. My flip-flops flew off in the wreck and were on the roof. The pathfinder was crushed at the place where the roof and the windshield meet so we weren't exactly resting flat on the roof we were more on the windshield so when i went to stand my feet were on the windshield and one of the guys grabbed me so i didn't cut my feet and helped me into my shoes. 

It was hard to stand on my own. Once you know you are okay the fight goes out of your body. There was a woman there though who wrapped me up in her arms and walked me to the side of the road and had me sit down while they helped jake out. I sat there on the side of 215 and cried in a strangers arms because i was so afraid for jake. i really wish i knew who that woman was. i wish there was some way i could thank her. 

They helped jake out of the car and as soon as he was up and walking towards me i shot up, went straight to him, and he wrapped me up in his arms. The ambulance got there right then, which was really fast. All in all it took them 5 min tops to get to us because they were in the area training and saw the pathfinder upside down. they weren't even the ones responding to the call. 

We took jake to the hospital because they were worried about his back but his scans and x-rays were negative for any fractures. i declined medical treatment. i wasn't in shock like jake was or in any pain. i just wanted to be in the ambulance with him. they took my vitals though while we sat on the side of the road. the EMT complemented me on my strong heart. i thought that was kinda funny. 

My grandparents came to get us from the hospital and we stayed at their house for the night. I am so glad to have such a good support system here. 

Today we are both pretty sore. My right leg is bothering me but its not really bad. Like i said we think i had my leg propped up against the dashboard so it probably hit the door pretty hard when we landed on my side. It is just muscle aches though. Nothing serious. 

We went to the tow yard to see the car. There are pictures below. Jake and i cleaned his stuff out and then we just stood there in each others arms and cried for a minute. The sheer impossibility that we walked away with nothing but one bruise and one scratch between us is enough to make anyone cry. We have spent a lot of time being thankful today. We were SO blessed! 

The roof above my door.


Jake's door.

The Windshield.
Burnt plastic and shredded metal above Jake's door.

The back door. Which we couldn't open.






Tuesday, February 10

take this as a sign?
songs you might need durring the scary moments

1. Ross Copperman (They'll Never Know)
Hush, baby don’t cry. Just get through this night 
Overcome.

2. Robbie Seay Band (Shine Your Light On Us)
Let Your rescue come for us, we long to love 
And if you feel lost, sing along

3. Paramore (Miracle)
I've been waiting for a miracle 
And I'm not leaving

4. Ingrid Michaelson (Keep Breathing)
All i can do is keep breathing.  All we can do is keep breathing now. 
 All we can do is keep breathing 

5. City and Colour (Hello, I'm Delaware)
It's been so long. Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong...
But I will see you again.


I got a scary phone call today.
The kind people pray they will never get. 

"Rachel, your grandpa is in intensive care." 

And all I could do and fathom and be was in that one sentence. Heart-ending and gut-pounding and soul-crushing as it was, the only thing I knew to do was twist my face into this shocked look that was scary enough to prompt an, "oh my gosh rachel, what happened?" from both my roommates. And I have never felt so helpless. It is hard for me to just pray. To offer up something like the prayer you say even though you know what you ask for might be pointless, but all you have left between you and that thing that scares you the most is a sliver of a hope that your prayer will save you.

yeah, maybe
amen

Tuesday, October 21

the important questions on my mind

EFY?

mission?

grad school?

letter of intent?

boys? do i even like them anymore?
(haha)

leave utah! when?

move home?

hawaii?

life blows.

Monday, August 28

i did this just for the x-men!!! mmm and tom welling



What side of the heart do you draw first?
the left

Can you dive without blocking your nose?:
Yes. but not too deep

Do you have a dog?
No.

What color is your razor?:
green and silver..it vibrates! when the bateries arent dead...like they have been for a year now

Cowboys or Pirates?:
Pirates.... BUT if i had to pick between johnny depp and tom welling (smallville, clark kent, farm boy) then tom all the way but hes not a cowboy so pirates

What was for dinner last night?:
Cheese ravoli with Alfredo sauce.... my favorite and i cooked it!

Do you watch TV Land?:
No.

Whats the weather like?:
sunny and breazy

Whats your favorite number?:
23

Do you help with the groceries?:
Um... Yeah. we buy them ourselves.. now that we are grownups

How often do you get dunkin donuts?
Never. I don't remember the last time. Probably fresh year for seminary.

Laptop?
woot! i have a mac- love it- and i just learned all these new tricks

Pets?
None. :)

What kind of sneakers do you wear?:
converse, kswiss, and diesel

Do you like Xmen?:
LOVE LOVE LOVE.... oh my GOSH its my favorite thing in the world... comic books coming out of the cracks in my house WOOT WOOT! I LOVE CYCLOPS! hes so fine

Do you have MSN?:
Yes.


Do you know Roman Numerals?:
some of them but i have lost those brain cells

AC?:
we actually have it now..woo woo

How many chairs at the dining room table?:
what table...

Do you like video games?
Some. gotta love Old School Nintendo! (ashley spelled it like a RETARD)

Whats your favorite gaming system?:
see above

Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?:
no...

Do you go to summer camp?:
i used to and i will next year as a councelor

Do you eat cafeteria food?:
I did all year last year... IT SUCKED

Whats your favorite kind of gum?
Orbit- Sweet Mint or big red

Do you like to read?
yes! woot all the time

Do you say basement or cellar?
basement... only potato farmers and the like say cellar haha

Do you have allergies, or on-going illnesses (rash diseases, etc)?:
no... allergies i guess but who knows to what?!

Do you like to sleep?:
like... no not at all! i love it

Do you HATE comercials?:
Yes, unless they make me pee my pants laughing.

Any statues in your house?:
No, but we have an "S".

Ever roasted marshmallows around a campfire?:
hecks yes. many times.

Who is / are your favorite band(s)?:
ummm well i did this survey backwards like i always do them so i have to say Panic! at the disco because i want to write about them in the next one

Ever seen them in concert?:
woooo yeah!!! i touched the lead singers leg..ish area

Ever been to any concerts?:
clearly seeing as the question directly above this one asks if ive seen Panic! in concert

Do you like rap?
every once in a while theres a good song but not in general

Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
no...sick

Are there any celebrities of the opposite sex who you find attractive?
tom welling... sex in a flannel shirt..mmmMhmmm
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