Showing posts with label crazyness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label crazyness. Show all posts
Thursday, July 10
Friday, June 27
Will you be just fine? Yes I'll be just fine!
I woke up this morning with a completly different attitude about my life. i just felt different. maybe thats because i slept in till 11.
maybe it's because that sleeping was done in a bed, not on a couch.
maybe it's because i have a new apartment to move into!
maybe it's because mommy was here and she poured glue into my broken heart.
but really i think it is because i am happy all on my own, without someone else holding me together. i'm not sure that i thought it was possible and i can't remember the last time i could just be happy without help. it feels good. it is a better kind of happy. and i was a fool to think i could get married before i figured this out. haha.
so today i say no more to the kitty hanging onto the window ledge that i have always been.
here are some of my ideas for moving forward...
Monday, June 16
i am a pro at blogging.
wow. what is this my fourth blog today? i think it's just cause i had the day off of work and therefore was totally bored! i think tomorrow i will look for a new job. i really really really want to work at the barnes and noble in the gateway mall. a. i would walk/ take the train from my new apartment. b. i. love. books. killer discount! c. i was there today and i told shannon i could live there. and it's true. i really could. something about walking around and looking at books and being the cute nerdy girl who knows where everything is is very appealing to me. so i will go and inquire tomorrow. but really even if i had to work in the cafe, i could do that. its right next to the journal section. i know that little corner quite well. omg. i thought of a d. breaking dawn release party. i bet i would get it before any of the other little 13 year old fan girls. and for cheaper. yay.
today i slept until about 12. then i laid in bed till about 1. then i sat around in bed watching various tv shows including unwrapped and one tree hill, oh and my big fat greek wedding. then shannon took me to get a pedicure because she is great. (and lets face it...i really needed it.) BEFORE:
shes like a second mommy. i think that heavenly father does nice things for me, like push back the date that my apartment will be ready, so that i can be okay. i think that staying here at the hansens defiantly helps in some ways. it's nice not to be alone.
and i got a foot massage and i sat in a massage chair. it rocked. while i was getting my toes done i started reading a book i picked up a while back but was putting off reading so i would have something to do when lyle was gone. i actually have a few books im doing that with. this book is called Pretty Little Mistakes by Heather McElhatton. it is really interesting. you start out at the beginning and then when you get to the end of a section you make a choice. like a life choice. go to school or travel. take this job or dont. so i am reading it and trying to make the kinds of choices that i would make in real life and where do i end up?? seriously no joke. i end up on page 70 getting a scholarship and going to an art school in ICELAND! not even kidding. i could not make up something this crazy. my mentors name is Halldora pordardottir (only there are icelandic letters and stuff in there). and i teach art at a small elementary school named Ardoejarskoli. and i teach 800 blond-haired, blue-eyed kids since Iceland is a nation of 270,000 of the most genetically similar people on earth.
crazy i tell ya.
then i went for a walk with shannon and her friend and i took the opportunity to take cool night pictures.
today i slept until about 12. then i laid in bed till about 1. then i sat around in bed watching various tv shows including unwrapped and one tree hill, oh and my big fat greek wedding. then shannon took me to get a pedicure because she is great. (and lets face it...i really needed it.) BEFORE:
shes like a second mommy. i think that heavenly father does nice things for me, like push back the date that my apartment will be ready, so that i can be okay. i think that staying here at the hansens defiantly helps in some ways. it's nice not to be alone.AFTER:
and i got a foot massage and i sat in a massage chair. it rocked. while i was getting my toes done i started reading a book i picked up a while back but was putting off reading so i would have something to do when lyle was gone. i actually have a few books im doing that with. this book is called Pretty Little Mistakes by Heather McElhatton. it is really interesting. you start out at the beginning and then when you get to the end of a section you make a choice. like a life choice. go to school or travel. take this job or dont. so i am reading it and trying to make the kinds of choices that i would make in real life and where do i end up?? seriously no joke. i end up on page 70 getting a scholarship and going to an art school in ICELAND! not even kidding. i could not make up something this crazy. my mentors name is Halldora pordardottir (only there are icelandic letters and stuff in there). and i teach art at a small elementary school named Ardoejarskoli. and i teach 800 blond-haired, blue-eyed kids since Iceland is a nation of 270,000 of the most genetically similar people on earth.
crazy i tell ya.
then i went for a walk with shannon and her friend and i took the opportunity to take cool night pictures.
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