a mix of music about making choices and the faith and spontaneity required to do so. sometimes you just have to leap! 

Weezer Troublemaker

"I'm a troublemaker

Never been a faker

Doing things my own way

And never giving up "

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Gavin DeGraw Meaning 

"Sometimes our only way is jumpin'.  I hope your not afraid of heights."

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Muse Knights of Cydonia

"The time has come to make things right...

You and I must fight to survive "

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Augustana Boston

"I think that I'm just tired.

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind."

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Frou Frou Let Go

"so let go, jump in

oh, well, whatcha waiting for

it's alright"

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Switchfoot This is Your Life

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?"

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Brooke Fraser C.S. Lewis Song

"For we, we are not long here 

Our time is but a breath, 

so we better breathe it. 

And I, I was made to live 

I was made to love 

I was made to know you 

Hope is coming for me"

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My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words

"I am not afraid to keep on living, 

I am not afraid to walk this world alone...

Nothing you can say can stop me going home. "

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Paramore Miracle

"I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive

So I'm going to start over tonight

Beginning with you and I...

It's not faith if you're using your eyes"

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Brad The Day Brings

"Get your heart, get your heart

Off of the shelf

Make the grey sky blue

Yeah, I'm talkin to you

And nevermind

The sick and the afraid"

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Sugarland Want To

"We could jump in...

Yeah we both got dreams

we could chase alone

or we could make our own...

Never waste another day wonderin' 

what you threw away

Holding me, holding you

I don't want to, if you don't want to."

~

Stars The Night Starts Here

"The time we have, the task at hand, the love it takes to become a man...The night starts here, the night starts here, forget your name, forget your fear."

Will you be just fine? Yes I'll be just fine!

I woke up this morning with a completly different attitude about my life. i just felt different. maybe thats because i slept in till 11. 

maybe it's because that sleeping was done in a bed, not on a couch. 

maybe it's because i have a new apartment to move into!

maybe it's because mommy was here and she poured glue into my broken heart. 

but really i think it is because i am happy all on my own, without someone else holding me together. i'm not sure that i thought it was possible and i can't remember the last time i could just be happy without help. it feels good. it is a better kind of happy. and i was a fool to think i could get married before i figured this out. haha. 

so today i say no more to the kitty hanging onto the window ledge that i have always been. 

here are some of my ideas for moving forward...

pretty substantial blog

wow... there is lots to talk about! yesterday we went to a yummy french patisserie and it just made me want to re-learn french. i had a really yummy food. i don't wanna turn this into a food blog but the sweet potato fries were friggin epic. 

and then i had a yummy croissant with cream cheese and raspberries. mmm.
then i watched batman forever with val kilmer as batman. really it is a dumb movie and the only real batman to me is christian bale but wow... i was watching this movie up in shannon's bed and all of a sudden i am like, "wow, i am getting really hot for this batman." and it was all because of his mouth... watching him talk made me all sorts of hot. phew.

thats what i am talking about. oh man. i have a mouth thing. it is the opposite of my mother's mouth thing. she dislikes certain mouths and i love the same ones. like james marsden. 

this is also what i am talking about. wow. only in this picture i am not so much looking at his mouth as his abs.
then today i went to work and steamed clothes for several hours and then my mom and i went to j. brooks jewelers to plan our lake powel adventure. i am tres excited. hopefully it all works out.
iv'e got a handful of photo shoots coming up and that will keep me busy. i like busy. and my apartment is finished!!! yay!!!

today at work i caught my reflection in the mirror and it was weird. i had major deja vu.

here i am in high school.


here i am today.


i am pondering on the things that have changed between these two girls.