my bathroom

I did this totally randomly after reading color me katie and being quite bored.

It was my turn to clean the bathroom, so I did, and then to brighten up the small oppressive little room I did this:

Now getting ready in the bathroom (instead of my bedroom, which has HORRIBLE lighting) is actually fun and brightens up my day a little.

edward cullen wishes he was this hot

just delirious

well aren't you just a cute little pyromaniac?

there really isn't much of an explanation for this. while in the process of packing and getting ready to move i came across this stack of letters i had written someone several months back. letters that i never intended to send. a therapeutic exercise of sorts. 

so why did i burn them? 

it felt appropriate i suppose 

i have always risen from my own ashes, like a phoenix, and this was just another one of those times. 

captured in photographs. 

Ashes... such a pretty word for such an ugly thing

© r.johanna arts 2009

watch!!!!!

you know how i feel about croissants!!!

gah, i can't wait to go home

life is getting pretty boring in salt lake city (mn here i come- t-minus 8 days)! but i find ways to keep myself occupied. like spending most of my day at the computer lab mooching internet. i take the train up here at least once a day. i like the train and that is a very good thing because my car died today. i didn't leave the lights on or anything so i am not sure what is wrong with it. it is holding a charge for now but we will see. it's kinda frustrating, but i can take the train just about anywhere i need to be so it's okay. i like to take pictures of the things i see along the way.
here is a Plymouth Colt. it is my lucky car. i happen to be quite superstitious in my own weird way. one of my favorite books is The Curious Incident With The Dog In The night by Mark Haddon. it started my car superstition. its about an autistic boy who creates order in his day by the number of cars he sees of the same color (four red cars in a row mean a wonderful day, while four yellow cars mean a bad day, in which case he does not eat lunch and will not speak). if i see a colt it means something good is going to happen. something big. its not like wearing lucky underwear big. its bigger. a teal one, like the one my dad drove when i was a kid, means something even better will happen. i have seen three colts since the summer started. one yellow (in spanish fork), one blue (on the highway), and this white one (at the library). so far the yellow and blue ones have brought me good things but i have yet to see what the white one will bring. (i sound crazy, i know, but it works so i can't ignore it).

i also saw this cool leaf in the park by my apartment. it is probably man made but still way cool to just see lying in the grass.

and then there was this broken down piece of machinery by the field house and i'm not sure why i thought the ditch witch was so funny but i laughed pretty hard.
also on my way to campus i saw two people reading twilight books. it is so swiffering the nation. anyways, i was just watching the show bones with david boreanaz and i decided this...

angel is THE vampire hearthrob and i loved him way before edward cullen was even thought up. not that rob isn't a cute guy (but he only does it for me when he is edward anyways). angel totally kicks edwards ass.



thats all for today i guess. i'm gonna go finish my episode of bones and then head home for some dinner. maybe buy some ice cream to celebrate getting some money.

Will you be just fine? Yes I'll be just fine!

I woke up this morning with a completly different attitude about my life. i just felt different. maybe thats because i slept in till 11. 

maybe it's because that sleeping was done in a bed, not on a couch. 

maybe it's because i have a new apartment to move into!

maybe it's because mommy was here and she poured glue into my broken heart. 

but really i think it is because i am happy all on my own, without someone else holding me together. i'm not sure that i thought it was possible and i can't remember the last time i could just be happy without help. it feels good. it is a better kind of happy. and i was a fool to think i could get married before i figured this out. haha. 

so today i say no more to the kitty hanging onto the window ledge that i have always been. 

here are some of my ideas for moving forward...

in high school i had an experience where the words to jimmy eats world's the middle changed my thinking and well, kinda my life, since i moved across the country soon after my thinking changed. i came across the lyric of a different song today, which made me think of the j.e.w. song which led me to create this mix of songs about everything being alright. here it is. i even made some half-assed cover art.

Yellowcard Believe 

"Everything is gonna be alright

Everything is gonna be alright

Everything is gonna be alright

Be strong believe"

Paramore Hallelujah 

"somehow every thing's gonna fall right into place." 

Jimmy Eat World The Middle

"It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.

Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright."

Motion City Soundtrack Everything Is Alright

"Someday you'll be fine..

Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,

Yeah everything is alright."

Umbrellas The City Lights

"I'm thinking ambitious

I've got this feeling things will be alright"

Killers Everything Will Be Alright

"I never knew, I never knew

But it's alright... 

Everything will be alright"

Indigo Girls Closer To Fine

"The less I seek my source for some definitive

the closer I am to fine." 

Relient K Everything Will Be

"It shines outside and in my life, 

and I know that everything is gonna be just fine." 

Maria Taylor One For The Shareholder

"It's the thought that gets lost in time

But it's all right "

Rosie Thomas Wedding Day

"guess i've been wrong

but it's all right"

All American Rejects Dance Inside

"And I'll be fine, you'll be fine

Is this fine?" 

Switchfoot More Than Fine

"I want more than just ok, more than just ok."

rosie thomas and photo booth