fun times with the family

so i am walking downtown stillwater with my siblings and my parents are a ways back, and some guy yells out of his car window at me, "hey beautiful!" and his car happened to be waiting for the light right as my parents walked by and so my dad turned to the guy and said, "that's my daughter." 

hahaha. 

it was gut busting. 

a mix of music about making choices and the faith and spontaneity required to do so. sometimes you just have to leap! 

Weezer Troublemaker

"I'm a troublemaker

Never been a faker

Doing things my own way

And never giving up "

~

Gavin DeGraw Meaning 

"Sometimes our only way is jumpin'.  I hope your not afraid of heights."

~

Muse Knights of Cydonia

"The time has come to make things right...

You and I must fight to survive "

~

Augustana Boston

"I think that I'm just tired.

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind."

~

Frou Frou Let Go

"so let go, jump in

oh, well, whatcha waiting for

it's alright"

~

Switchfoot This is Your Life

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?"

~

Brooke Fraser C.S. Lewis Song

"For we, we are not long here 

Our time is but a breath, 

so we better breathe it. 

And I, I was made to live 

I was made to love 

I was made to know you 

Hope is coming for me"

~

My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words

"I am not afraid to keep on living, 

I am not afraid to walk this world alone...

Nothing you can say can stop me going home. "

~

Paramore Miracle

"I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive

So I'm going to start over tonight

Beginning with you and I...

It's not faith if you're using your eyes"

~

Brad The Day Brings

"Get your heart, get your heart

Off of the shelf

Make the grey sky blue

Yeah, I'm talkin to you

And nevermind

The sick and the afraid"

~

Sugarland Want To

"We could jump in...

Yeah we both got dreams

we could chase alone

or we could make our own...

Never waste another day wonderin' 

what you threw away

Holding me, holding you

I don't want to, if you don't want to."

~

Stars The Night Starts Here

"The time we have, the task at hand, the love it takes to become a man...The night starts here, the night starts here, forget your name, forget your fear."

edward freaking cullen...

i wish i knew how to quit you

here comes the bride

so yesterday, while waiting for the train, a really creepy older-ish guy sat down next to me... really creepy. apparently he thought i was really pretty and told me several times, both in english and spanish. the train was taking forever to come and in my head i kept begging for the train to be right around the corner. so then the guy starts to give me awkward side hugs and then he tried to hold my hand. seriously, he reached out and grabbed my hand to hold, more than once, since i pulled away several times. get the hint already. he also asked for a drink of water and my phone number. i have him the water bottle but not the number. so then my train comes (and thank goodness he was waiting for a sandy train and not getting on my university train) and he insists on giving me a hug good bye, during which i could feel his boner on my leg. insert full body shudder here.

so needless to say i am extremely grossed out.

so by the power vested in me, by the fantastical nature of my brain, i went out and got myself married.



i went to smiths to get some ice cream and all the jewelry was 50% off so i bought myself a wedding ring...it was only $7 bucks but its the thought that counts. being married to myself is surprisingly easy. i like all the same music, books and movies. i am not an ice cream hog and i am pretty good at doing the dishes without being asked. i think it will be a long and fruitful marriage. hopefully it will help keep the creeps way.

gah, i can't wait to go home

life is getting pretty boring in salt lake city (mn here i come- t-minus 8 days)! but i find ways to keep myself occupied. like spending most of my day at the computer lab mooching internet. i take the train up here at least once a day. i like the train and that is a very good thing because my car died today. i didn't leave the lights on or anything so i am not sure what is wrong with it. it is holding a charge for now but we will see. it's kinda frustrating, but i can take the train just about anywhere i need to be so it's okay. i like to take pictures of the things i see along the way.
here is a Plymouth Colt. it is my lucky car. i happen to be quite superstitious in my own weird way. one of my favorite books is The Curious Incident With The Dog In The night by Mark Haddon. it started my car superstition. its about an autistic boy who creates order in his day by the number of cars he sees of the same color (four red cars in a row mean a wonderful day, while four yellow cars mean a bad day, in which case he does not eat lunch and will not speak). if i see a colt it means something good is going to happen. something big. its not like wearing lucky underwear big. its bigger. a teal one, like the one my dad drove when i was a kid, means something even better will happen. i have seen three colts since the summer started. one yellow (in spanish fork), one blue (on the highway), and this white one (at the library). so far the yellow and blue ones have brought me good things but i have yet to see what the white one will bring. (i sound crazy, i know, but it works so i can't ignore it).

i also saw this cool leaf in the park by my apartment. it is probably man made but still way cool to just see lying in the grass.

and then there was this broken down piece of machinery by the field house and i'm not sure why i thought the ditch witch was so funny but i laughed pretty hard.
also on my way to campus i saw two people reading twilight books. it is so swiffering the nation. anyways, i was just watching the show bones with david boreanaz and i decided this...

angel is THE vampire hearthrob and i loved him way before edward cullen was even thought up. not that rob isn't a cute guy (but he only does it for me when he is edward anyways). angel totally kicks edwards ass.



thats all for today i guess. i'm gonna go finish my episode of bones and then head home for some dinner. maybe buy some ice cream to celebrate getting some money.

lots to catch up on

i have no internet so i have to take trax up to campus and use it here. so i have been putting off the blogging. i do however have lots of fun stuff and pictures and movies to post about. 

first was eliza's 21st birthday at the cheesecake factory. 

then there is my new apartment... the pictures suck because, really, theres not enough room to back up and take good ones. these are before i got anything in there.




then i went 80s dancing with my friend josh and his girlfriend and a bunch of other people and we slept over at josh's house that night and went camping up hobble creek canyon for the fourth. it was a ton of fun. we just goofed off all night. we were in the middle of nowhere and so we played music really loud (and killed the car battery in the process), danced around like idiots, went for a night hike, threw water balloons, wondered about bears, made spoon art, blew up sobe bottles full of gasoline, roasted marshmallows, ate boca burgers, and peed in gross toilets (although it was better than peeing in the dark woods i suppose).

i stayed sober... but some of the others didn't. which i found surprising since they were BYU kids. whoever thinks utes are sinners are douche bags. really now. i was the only ute and the only one not drinking. here are the pix i took... some are blurry which i think is cool. and the videos are awesome!!!







then on sunday i went to grandmas for dinner and a bunch of my cousins were there. grandma made spinach lasagna which was awesome but she thinks i don't eat enough. i have lost 8 pounds though so maybe she's right. here is a video of grandpa singing some song from some play he was in when my dad was a baby. blogger is being dumb and wont let me upload the other videos... i will try again later.

bah internet

i haven't posted in a long time although i have several plans for future posts... i am in my new apartment (where i have no internet connection) and i am going out of town for the weekend! happy fourth of july everyone!! 

things i hate today:

facebook (in this case i also love it- a love hate relationship)

losing things (like the wheel to my bed frame)

my job

track pad stickers (and the lack there of)

ipods that don't work

things i love today:

pieces of flair

the secrets of peaches by jodi lynn anderson

orange juice

my new apartment

and this picture

Will you be just fine? Yes I'll be just fine!

I woke up this morning with a completly different attitude about my life. i just felt different. maybe thats because i slept in till 11. 

maybe it's because that sleeping was done in a bed, not on a couch. 

maybe it's because i have a new apartment to move into!

maybe it's because mommy was here and she poured glue into my broken heart. 

but really i think it is because i am happy all on my own, without someone else holding me together. i'm not sure that i thought it was possible and i can't remember the last time i could just be happy without help. it feels good. it is a better kind of happy. and i was a fool to think i could get married before i figured this out. haha. 

so today i say no more to the kitty hanging onto the window ledge that i have always been. 

here are some of my ideas for moving forward...

in high school i had an experience where the words to jimmy eats world's the middle changed my thinking and well, kinda my life, since i moved across the country soon after my thinking changed. i came across the lyric of a different song today, which made me think of the j.e.w. song which led me to create this mix of songs about everything being alright. here it is. i even made some half-assed cover art.

Yellowcard Believe 

"Everything is gonna be alright

Everything is gonna be alright

Everything is gonna be alright

Be strong believe"

Paramore Hallelujah 

"somehow every thing's gonna fall right into place." 

Jimmy Eat World The Middle

"It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.

Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright."

Motion City Soundtrack Everything Is Alright

"Someday you'll be fine..

Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,

Yeah everything is alright."

Umbrellas The City Lights

"I'm thinking ambitious

I've got this feeling things will be alright"

Killers Everything Will Be Alright

"I never knew, I never knew

But it's alright... 

Everything will be alright"

Indigo Girls Closer To Fine

"The less I seek my source for some definitive

the closer I am to fine." 

Relient K Everything Will Be

"It shines outside and in my life, 

and I know that everything is gonna be just fine." 

Maria Taylor One For The Shareholder

"It's the thought that gets lost in time

But it's all right "

Rosie Thomas Wedding Day

"guess i've been wrong

but it's all right"

All American Rejects Dance Inside

"And I'll be fine, you'll be fine

Is this fine?" 

Switchfoot More Than Fine

"I want more than just ok, more than just ok."

pretty substantial blog

wow... there is lots to talk about! yesterday we went to a yummy french patisserie and it just made me want to re-learn french. i had a really yummy food. i don't wanna turn this into a food blog but the sweet potato fries were friggin epic. 

and then i had a yummy croissant with cream cheese and raspberries. mmm.
then i watched batman forever with val kilmer as batman. really it is a dumb movie and the only real batman to me is christian bale but wow... i was watching this movie up in shannon's bed and all of a sudden i am like, "wow, i am getting really hot for this batman." and it was all because of his mouth... watching him talk made me all sorts of hot. phew.

thats what i am talking about. oh man. i have a mouth thing. it is the opposite of my mother's mouth thing. she dislikes certain mouths and i love the same ones. like james marsden. 

this is also what i am talking about. wow. only in this picture i am not so much looking at his mouth as his abs.
then today i went to work and steamed clothes for several hours and then my mom and i went to j. brooks jewelers to plan our lake powel adventure. i am tres excited. hopefully it all works out.
iv'e got a handful of photo shoots coming up and that will keep me busy. i like busy. and my apartment is finished!!! yay!!!

today at work i caught my reflection in the mirror and it was weird. i had major deja vu.

here i am in high school.


here i am today.


i am pondering on the things that have changed between these two girls.

I spent last night with mark whalberg

okay so i missed my saturday post but i am a busy girl so what do you want from me? here i am in Shannon's big bed-typing typing. 
i got some cute new blonde hair and i like it a lot. and i have some new red flip flops. i also like them a lot.

but i also got a surprise visit and i like it a lot a lot.

i was having a crisis and the momma bear was angry (grrr) and she came to take care of the baby bear. although there really wasn't much to take care of and so she and i are just having lots of fun. yesterday we went shopping and she got me a really cute white dress from american eagle. and i wore it to church today and it was really cute on.
then last night we went to see the m. night shama lama ding dong movie, the happening. i closed my eyes a lot. there was some gory stuff. i liked it though. any movie with mark is good enough entertainment for me.
while i was in the bathroom i took a picture of the cool wallpaper. i hope there was no one else in the stalls that heard my shutter click and thought i was taking dirty pictures of my whoo ha.


i also had to take a picture of the twilight poster. like a geek. but i wasn't a big enough geek to take a picture of me in front of it.
then this morning we had lunch at little america after church. my fruit salad was not only huge but it was pretty.

then at the end of the meal abbys ice cream had melted and so had my sherbet so i made food art.
so far that is the extent of the awesomeness but i am sure more is to come. like moving into my apartment. yay! 

the higher and photo booth

rosie thomas and photo booth

just real quick this morning

i must say: "um, i had an adrenaline rush. it's very common. you can google it!"

edit: the black was too depressing and made my pictures look funky.

i am a pro at blogging.

wow. what is this my fourth blog today? i think it's just cause i had the day off of work and therefore was totally bored! i think tomorrow i will look for a new job. i really really really want to work at the barnes and noble in the gateway mall. a. i would walk/ take the train from my new apartment. b. i. love. books. killer discount! c. i was there today and i told shannon i could live there. and it's true. i really could. something about walking around and looking at books and being the cute nerdy girl who knows where everything is is very appealing to me. so i will go and inquire tomorrow. but really even if i had to work in the cafe, i could do that. its right next to the journal section. i know that little corner quite well. omg. i thought of a d. breaking dawn release party. i bet i would get it before any of the other little 13 year old fan girls. and for cheaper. yay.

today i slept until about 12. then i laid in bed till about 1. then i sat around in bed watching various tv shows including unwrapped and one tree hill, oh and my big fat greek wedding. then shannon took me to get a pedicure because she is great. (and lets face it...i really needed it.) BEFORE: shes like a second mommy. i think that heavenly father does nice things for me, like push back the date that my apartment will be ready, so that i can be okay. i think that staying here at the hansens defiantly helps in some ways. it's nice not to be alone.

AFTER:

and i got a foot massage and i sat in a massage chair. it rocked. while i was getting my toes done i started reading a book i picked up a while back but was putting off reading so i would have something to do when lyle was gone. i actually have a few books im doing that with. this book is called Pretty Little Mistakes by Heather McElhatton. it is really interesting. you start out at the beginning and then when you get to the end of a section you make a choice. like a life choice. go to school or travel. take this job or dont. so i am reading it and trying to make the kinds of choices that i would make in real life and where do i end up?? seriously no joke. i end up on page 70 getting a scholarship and going to an art school in ICELAND! not even kidding. i could not make up something this crazy. my mentors name is Halldora pordardottir (only there are icelandic letters and stuff in there). and i teach art at a small elementary school named Ardoejarskoli. and i teach 800 blond-haired, blue-eyed kids since Iceland is a nation of 270,000 of the most genetically similar people on earth.

crazy i tell ya.

then i went for a walk with shannon and her friend and i took the opportunity to take cool night pictures.