advanced photo final

"A pretty birthmark for such a beautiful face.
All the men from her past
Seem to have left her abandoned,
I guess there's some things
That you can never erase."
-Rachael (She Wants Revenge)

happiness is...

graduating is stressful.
it makes your body hurt.
which then makes your projects not turn out how you wanted because you have NO energy.
I plan to continue the Happiness is... series and i hope to be able to use all of the answers people sent me.
I would just rather be in bed right now.

for those of you who don't know about this project... i asked the majority of the people close to me to finish the sentence happiness is... i got some really interesting answers. some people were funny and some more serious. all in all though it served its purpose and helped me explore what happiness means to me and how i can finally figure out how to have some.

as usual you can click on an image to make it bigger and don't steal my stuff.

that little black dress
a bad memory
clean underwear
lipgloss
that feeling you get when you first climb into a hot bath
Edward Cullen
pounding an energy drink your body can't handle
a bowl of sorbet and a churro 
a sleeping baby
knowing she's out there smiling somewhere

the important questions on my mind

EFY?

mission?

grad school?

letter of intent?

boys? do i even like them anymore?
(haha)

leave utah! when?

move home?

hawaii?

life blows.

watch!!!!!

you know how i feel about croissants!!!

how i feel in light of recent emails

my hair

colin commented on its "awesomeness" today so i thought i would share.

129 reasons not to be with you too

this series is a sequel of sorts to a previous project of mine. check it out here if you haven't seen it yet. originally, though, there was a different "sequel." it was titled "129 reasons to be with you" and it wasn't exactly art. it was a list. a list of reasons that someone wanted to be with me and the last line said, "i can't think of 129 reasons to not be with you."

i am not even supposed to know the list exists. i found it on his computer by accident one day while playing the role of the "good farmer's wife" and looking up a recipe for dinner.

i'm sure it's been deleted by now.
i am also sure it was mostly a lie.

three wedding dates later and all i have is this series of photographs...but in all honesty, i'd rather have these photos than that list.

you can click on the images to make them bigger!















all images are property of r.johanna arts and cannot be used without the artists permission...yadda yadda blah blah blah. don't steal my stuff.

new layout

i designed my sisters blog and then i got jealous... so i made a new one for myself.
enjoy!

for the giggles

or in my case insane silent laughter in the library.

first day of school

i am wearing my poncho because it is freaking freezing in the photo class room.

the end of summer and back to school which is also the end...

i'm just full of endings right now.

i figured out how to make a slideshow, after several failed attempts and stupid websites.

these are all pictures from the second half of my summer from my trip to Minnesota, where i spent time on the beach with mom, went to a bridal shower and met a cute boy, went bowling, partied at Lumberjack days (and had bottomless mugs of root beer) and got caught in a really bad storm in Wisconsin. then i came home and my family wasn't far behind so abby and i went up to idaho to meet them and went tubing and rock hunting and alpine sliding. (have you ever noticed that bologna and lasagna don't rhyme?) then my family came down to utah for more fun and too much ice cream.

there are lots of feet and bikinis as usual for me.

(also check out my playlist, which i stuck permanently at the top of my blog)

enjoy! i'm off to research graduate schools and finish setting up my cute apartment! (bookshelves!!!!!!!)

stupid universe

okay so every time i try and delete the iceland blog safari unexpectedly quits on me... i'm not sure if the universe is trying to tell me something or if it's trying to dick with me but i'm going to let it go for now. i'll try and move the rest of the blogs over here some other time. ugh. i'm pissed.

edit: it worked! {over a year later}

RSS feeds

i will be killing everyone's rss feeds for a moment because i am moving all my posts from racheestaysput.blogspot.com over here because i don't wanna loose them, but i am deleting the iceland themed blog. 

fun times with the family

so i am walking downtown stillwater with my siblings and my parents are a ways back, and some guy yells out of his car window at me, "hey beautiful!" and his car happened to be waiting for the light right as my parents walked by and so my dad turned to the guy and said, "that's my daughter." 

hahaha. 

it was gut busting. 

a mix of music about making choices and the faith and spontaneity required to do so. sometimes you just have to leap! 

Weezer Troublemaker

"I'm a troublemaker

Never been a faker

Doing things my own way

And never giving up "

~

Gavin DeGraw Meaning 

"Sometimes our only way is jumpin'.  I hope your not afraid of heights."

~

Muse Knights of Cydonia

"The time has come to make things right...

You and I must fight to survive "

~

Augustana Boston

"I think that I'm just tired.

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind."

~

Frou Frou Let Go

"so let go, jump in

oh, well, whatcha waiting for

it's alright"

~

Switchfoot This is Your Life

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?"

~

Brooke Fraser C.S. Lewis Song

"For we, we are not long here 

Our time is but a breath, 

so we better breathe it. 

And I, I was made to live 

I was made to love 

I was made to know you 

Hope is coming for me"

~

My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words

"I am not afraid to keep on living, 

I am not afraid to walk this world alone...

Nothing you can say can stop me going home. "

~

Paramore Miracle

"I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive

So I'm going to start over tonight

Beginning with you and I...

It's not faith if you're using your eyes"

~

Brad The Day Brings

"Get your heart, get your heart

Off of the shelf

Make the grey sky blue

Yeah, I'm talkin to you

And nevermind

The sick and the afraid"

~

Sugarland Want To

"We could jump in...

Yeah we both got dreams

we could chase alone

or we could make our own...

Never waste another day wonderin' 

what you threw away

Holding me, holding you

I don't want to, if you don't want to."

~

Stars The Night Starts Here

"The time we have, the task at hand, the love it takes to become a man...The night starts here, the night starts here, forget your name, forget your fear."

edward freaking cullen...

i wish i knew how to quit you

here comes the bride

so yesterday, while waiting for the train, a really creepy older-ish guy sat down next to me... really creepy. apparently he thought i was really pretty and told me several times, both in english and spanish. the train was taking forever to come and in my head i kept begging for the train to be right around the corner. so then the guy starts to give me awkward side hugs and then he tried to hold my hand. seriously, he reached out and grabbed my hand to hold, more than once, since i pulled away several times. get the hint already. he also asked for a drink of water and my phone number. i have him the water bottle but not the number. so then my train comes (and thank goodness he was waiting for a sandy train and not getting on my university train) and he insists on giving me a hug good bye, during which i could feel his boner on my leg. insert full body shudder here.

so needless to say i am extremely grossed out.

so by the power vested in me, by the fantastical nature of my brain, i went out and got myself married.



i went to smiths to get some ice cream and all the jewelry was 50% off so i bought myself a wedding ring...it was only $7 bucks but its the thought that counts. being married to myself is surprisingly easy. i like all the same music, books and movies. i am not an ice cream hog and i am pretty good at doing the dishes without being asked. i think it will be a long and fruitful marriage. hopefully it will help keep the creeps way.

gah, i can't wait to go home

life is getting pretty boring in salt lake city (mn here i come- t-minus 8 days)! but i find ways to keep myself occupied. like spending most of my day at the computer lab mooching internet. i take the train up here at least once a day. i like the train and that is a very good thing because my car died today. i didn't leave the lights on or anything so i am not sure what is wrong with it. it is holding a charge for now but we will see. it's kinda frustrating, but i can take the train just about anywhere i need to be so it's okay. i like to take pictures of the things i see along the way.
here is a Plymouth Colt. it is my lucky car. i happen to be quite superstitious in my own weird way. one of my favorite books is The Curious Incident With The Dog In The night by Mark Haddon. it started my car superstition. its about an autistic boy who creates order in his day by the number of cars he sees of the same color (four red cars in a row mean a wonderful day, while four yellow cars mean a bad day, in which case he does not eat lunch and will not speak). if i see a colt it means something good is going to happen. something big. its not like wearing lucky underwear big. its bigger. a teal one, like the one my dad drove when i was a kid, means something even better will happen. i have seen three colts since the summer started. one yellow (in spanish fork), one blue (on the highway), and this white one (at the library). so far the yellow and blue ones have brought me good things but i have yet to see what the white one will bring. (i sound crazy, i know, but it works so i can't ignore it).

i also saw this cool leaf in the park by my apartment. it is probably man made but still way cool to just see lying in the grass.

and then there was this broken down piece of machinery by the field house and i'm not sure why i thought the ditch witch was so funny but i laughed pretty hard.
also on my way to campus i saw two people reading twilight books. it is so swiffering the nation. anyways, i was just watching the show bones with david boreanaz and i decided this...

angel is THE vampire hearthrob and i loved him way before edward cullen was even thought up. not that rob isn't a cute guy (but he only does it for me when he is edward anyways). angel totally kicks edwards ass.



thats all for today i guess. i'm gonna go finish my episode of bones and then head home for some dinner. maybe buy some ice cream to celebrate getting some money.

lots to catch up on

i have no internet so i have to take trax up to campus and use it here. so i have been putting off the blogging. i do however have lots of fun stuff and pictures and movies to post about. 

first was eliza's 21st birthday at the cheesecake factory. 

then there is my new apartment... the pictures suck because, really, theres not enough room to back up and take good ones. these are before i got anything in there.




then i went 80s dancing with my friend josh and his girlfriend and a bunch of other people and we slept over at josh's house that night and went camping up hobble creek canyon for the fourth. it was a ton of fun. we just goofed off all night. we were in the middle of nowhere and so we played music really loud (and killed the car battery in the process), danced around like idiots, went for a night hike, threw water balloons, wondered about bears, made spoon art, blew up sobe bottles full of gasoline, roasted marshmallows, ate boca burgers, and peed in gross toilets (although it was better than peeing in the dark woods i suppose).

i stayed sober... but some of the others didn't. which i found surprising since they were BYU kids. whoever thinks utes are sinners are douche bags. really now. i was the only ute and the only one not drinking. here are the pix i took... some are blurry which i think is cool. and the videos are awesome!!!







then on sunday i went to grandmas for dinner and a bunch of my cousins were there. grandma made spinach lasagna which was awesome but she thinks i don't eat enough. i have lost 8 pounds though so maybe she's right. here is a video of grandpa singing some song from some play he was in when my dad was a baby. blogger is being dumb and wont let me upload the other videos... i will try again later.